GIRL: hmm.. i have a question.. BOY: nu po yun? G: do i demand too much? B: nope. G: Promise? B: yup2 sakto lng. G: ok, i'l tell u something B: wat is it po? G: im afraid im getting too attached to u... B: kea steady lang.. bka d q mgampanan mga dapat qng gampanan G: ok. steady lng. B: masaya aq kung anong meron tayo ngaun. . G: ok. :)
-end-
3:45 AM
Saturday, December 27, 2008 COLOURED.
i hate you! -anj
my sister hates me now.
gawd. i cant stand the fact that she's ignoring me.. :'|
dang it!
2:03 PM
Friday, December 26, 2008 COLOURED.
late night phone call
just hung up the phone. I'm in the mood now to post something here. well, obviously i feel happy right now because of the phone call.
...i just love hearing his voice. ...i miss him so much.
we talked about random things. mostly about how our day turned out. our plans. i asked Him if he still loves this previous girl and he said NO, not anymore- not that i don't believe him, i really do, but i know how much he loved her so i doubt if he's really over her already. he admitted that sometimes he thinks of her but not like before. he asked me about the night the sky smiled, if i ever felt awkward or angry. i told him NO- i don't really know myself why. why don't i feel angry.. well i guess because i know i allowed things to happen and somehow i want it to happen. i can say that right now, i don't have REGRETS, honestly after that night i wished i didn't allow things to happen because its wrong and we rushed things. i wished for it not to happen because i don't want to fall, fall for the guy who loves another girl. right now even if he told me that he's over with the other girl, I'm still not sure about his feelings, i so badly want to ask Him about it, about Us, what's really up with us right now. why are we being extra sweet to each other, why do we text each other everyday, why do we watch movie together, why do we hold hands, and cuddle up on each other. why do we kiss... but i don't have enough guts to do so, and i am afraid to hear the wrong answer to my question. in our phone conversation he said the coming year is his year, for his work, for his family.. i wonder if it's also his year for love. he didn't mention anything about how he feels about me, about us. i don't know if i really don't mind. i really don't know. i was happy to hear his voice. i miss him so much. his hugs and kisses.
sometimes i cant help but think about what our friends will say if they found out what happened. will they ever understand us. ME- i sometimes feel like i am an easy-to-get kind of girl but every time i think about it, i also tell myself that the most important thing right now is that I'm having fun. I AM HAPPY. I feel LOVED. i feel ACCEPTED. i wish i can say to him how important he is to me,..
right now, I am not so sure if i am already IN-LOVE with Him.
what do you think?
2:22 AM
Monday, December 22, 2008 COLOURED.
PINKY SWEAR =D
from this day on, i vowed to regularly update my blogspot. =D
1:55 PM
Saturday, December 06, 2008 COLOURED.
let destiny decide
there are things that you dont want to think of but you cant even forget it. much like whats happening to me for the past three days. things that i dont really want to think of keeps on getting back inside my head. not having anj around makes things difficult. i have nobody to talk to. i so want tsinito to be around so badly too but he cant because he has his own life and family.. I'm left with the 4 walls of my room, my effin senti sounds, and my fckng helpless self.
there are things that you dont want to continue but you are afraid to end it. i dont want to continue to feel this way. the feeling of loneliness and alone-ness and the longing for him. it's fucking tiring. but i am really afraid to end it. because i still believe that he'll come back, that maybe he still needs time to think things and to asses his feelings. i'm still hoping. ;'(
it's just like you dont want to expect anything but youre still willing to wait. yea. i dont want to expect anything but i cant helpd it! if a kiss is an assurance then he gave me that. it felt like "im going back, wait for me.." but what's keeping him so long? the other girl? i know he loved(?,, or still loves) that girl so much. but am i not enough? i'm still willing to wait, but i dont know how long..
i received this msg from eyi earlier. "feelings are not permanent, maybe you love that person today.. maybe tomorrow its hurt.."
...sooner or later, i'll get over him..
i know i will.. and thats whats keeping me strong right now, the hope that there is still hapiness after this.
10:40 AM
Tuesday, December 02, 2008 COLOURED.
sky's the limit.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO feel ANYMORE.
(sarcastic tone) nice thing to start the month.
is this a punishment for getting drunk the whole week.?! dang!
damn it! i cant get over even with the smell of his perfume.
10:54 PM
Monday, December 29, 2008 COLOURED.
late-night conversation
one night...
GIRL: hmm.. i have a question.. BOY: nu po yun? G: do i demand too much? B: nope. G: Promise? B: yup2 sakto lng. G: ok, i'l tell u something B: wat is it po? G: im afraid im getting too attached to u... B: kea steady lang.. bka d q mgampanan mga dapat qng gampanan G: ok. steady lng. B: masaya aq kung anong meron tayo ngaun. . G: ok. :)
just hung up the phone. I'm in the mood now to post something here. well, obviously i feel happy right now because of the phone call.
...i just love hearing his voice. ...i miss him so much.
we talked about random things. mostly about how our day turned out. our plans. i asked Him if he still loves this previous girl and he said NO, not anymore- not that i don't believe him, i really do, but i know how much he loved her so i doubt if he's really over her already. he admitted that sometimes he thinks of her but not like before. he asked me about the night the sky smiled, if i ever felt awkward or angry. i told him NO- i don't really know myself why. why don't i feel angry.. well i guess because i know i allowed things to happen and somehow i want it to happen. i can say that right now, i don't have REGRETS, honestly after that night i wished i didn't allow things to happen because its wrong and we rushed things. i wished for it not to happen because i don't want to fall, fall for the guy who loves another girl. right now even if he told me that he's over with the other girl, I'm still not sure about his feelings, i so badly want to ask Him about it, about Us, what's really up with us right now. why are we being extra sweet to each other, why do we text each other everyday, why do we watch movie together, why do we hold hands, and cuddle up on each other. why do we kiss... but i don't have enough guts to do so, and i am afraid to hear the wrong answer to my question. in our phone conversation he said the coming year is his year, for his work, for his family.. i wonder if it's also his year for love. he didn't mention anything about how he feels about me, about us. i don't know if i really don't mind. i really don't know. i was happy to hear his voice. i miss him so much. his hugs and kisses.
sometimes i cant help but think about what our friends will say if they found out what happened. will they ever understand us. ME- i sometimes feel like i am an easy-to-get kind of girl but every time i think about it, i also tell myself that the most important thing right now is that I'm having fun. I AM HAPPY. I feel LOVED. i feel ACCEPTED. i wish i can say to him how important he is to me,..
right now, I am not so sure if i am already IN-LOVE with Him.
there are things that you dont want to think of but you cant even forget it. much like whats happening to me for the past three days. things that i dont really want to think of keeps on getting back inside my head. not having anj around makes things difficult. i have nobody to talk to. i so want tsinito to be around so badly too but he cant because he has his own life and family.. I'm left with the 4 walls of my room, my effin senti sounds, and my fckng helpless self.
there are things that you dont want to continue but you are afraid to end it. i dont want to continue to feel this way. the feeling of loneliness and alone-ness and the longing for him. it's fucking tiring. but i am really afraid to end it. because i still believe that he'll come back, that maybe he still needs time to think things and to asses his feelings. i'm still hoping. ;'(
it's just like you dont want to expect anything but youre still willing to wait. yea. i dont want to expect anything but i cant helpd it! if a kiss is an assurance then he gave me that. it felt like "im going back, wait for me.." but what's keeping him so long? the other girl? i know he loved(?,, or still loves) that girl so much. but am i not enough? i'm still willing to wait, but i dont know how long..
i received this msg from eyi earlier. "feelings are not permanent, maybe you love that person today.. maybe tomorrow its hurt.."
...sooner or later, i'll get over him..
i know i will.. and thats whats keeping me strong right now, the hope that there is still hapiness after this.
HELLO! VISITOR, A LIL PIECE OF INFO ABOUT the BLOGGER. YOU CAN CALL HER RMI SHE LOVE COLOURS. NO FAVORITISMS SHE CAN GO WITH ANY COLORS DEPENDING ON HER MOOD !
the blogger is a graduating student of Marketing Management in the University of Santo Tomas
loves eating and chatting with friends
major interest is fashion and tv series such as Supernatural, One tree hill, Glee, Gossip girl, boys over flowers, and many more.
I love MUSIC
Since i love music and i am addicted to it, i'll post here lyrics and chords(I'll try to fix that soon) of my favorite songs.
ive got a playlist from mixpod. will update this hmm.. REGULARLY. for now. get sick of the current songs. hehe!
My new Favorite... RT played this as a reflection song during our youth camp.
I've been Lokking for this for the longest time, it actually slipped my mind,
Good thing He played this.. Thanx RT
YOUR EVERYTHING
(WOODSTRUCK ALBUM 2)
In the darkness of life
I search for your light
You alone are my hope oh Lord
Its You Alone..Its You alone
I surrender to You
Take all of my pride
You alone are my savior Lord
Its You alone... Its You alone...
Chorus
You gave up your life for me
You set me free and You
showed me your love
You've given your Everything
for me to live
Bridge
Never have you walked away from me
YOu were always there when I need you
Now and forever I will serve You my master
I will follow You
this one is a Worship song that really struck me during the REVIVE kasangga overnight.
im in love with it! ;)
THROUGH IT ALL
HILLSONG UNITED
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You
Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
HOPES
Its a hope of COLOURS
-i wish for HIGHer GRADES----------
-I wish for a HAPPY AND CONTINuOUS LOVE LIFE----------
-I wish and hope for a strong faith and stronger service----------
-I wish to see the sky smile again----------
-I wish for a year full of Fun----------
-I wish for myself happiness----------
-I wish my friends and family happiness, good health and peace of mind---------
THE TODOLIST
MY TO DO LIST!
Laundry Business Feasibility study
SECTORCONFERENCE "HOMERUN"
HOUSEHOLD
Chapter assembly
Planning for November Youth Camp
METROCON
GRADPIC PHOTOSHOOT
here's my unofficial mtv for "the art of letting go by Mikaila" this was a requirement for my Integrated Marketing Communications subject. Doing this video was a total exasperation for me and tin. the guy from the vid was my dear friend Nikko Gomez who was kind enough to help me and tin and was very generous to let us use his condo unit and his face for the vid. thanx nikko.
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