RMI got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
...that you cannot wait anymore.
The moment has finally come. You have no choice. You have to take that step now. Now. Not tomorrow, not in an hour, - Now! If anyone else is reading this, they would be confused. But not you. You know exactly what we mean. Do it. Now.
++for the past few days that i read God's message, the only thing that he wants for me right now is complete happiness. and i will only achieve it by letting go of earl. by moving on with life. and today. he said it. i should let go NOW. not later. not tomorrow or next week. LET GO NOW.
for the Last Time.. NOW. or never..
1:44 PM
emo-stress
i am still undergoing emotional stress. i wanna cry. i really do. even if there are a lot of excuses not to think of him i still do. i think of him during travel to school and when it was time to go home. why is it so hard to let him go? why is this so hard for me to do? i wish i can put into words all these emotions. i'm tired of crying and being lonely. i am tired of waiting but i dont know if i can let go. i cant. i just cant.
1:30 AM
Saturday, July 25, 2009 COLOURED.
imy
i miss ARL
1:39 AM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009 COLOURED.
JOURNAL
i was looking for my journal like crazy. i thought i lost it. actually i forgot all about it. it made me cry when i found it somewhere safe. i cant remember putting it there. this journal was a gift from Irish last year. i received it july and decided to use it December. the start of my love adventure. everything that's not written online were written here. I'm freaking out when i couldn't find it because everything in here were confidential. and they were all personal. almost all entries concerns earl. i was laughing when i reread it. i realize that i was never learning. that i am really too stubborn. i always tell myself.. "will i ever learn". Im having a hard time deciding whether to call it off or stay.
i dont know now. i have a lot on my mind.. school stuffs. yfc thingies. .i dont need this right now. cant he just support me or atleast put a smile on my face. he's still not texting. i dont know anymore. i just dont want to think of anything about him right now. argh. but its hard. super.. ;O
2:54 AM
Monday, July 20, 2009 COLOURED.
i miss E
I'm at a loss for words. i just want to admit this.
I MISS HIM. BIGTIME!
i hate our last conversation.
i wanna see him. now.
12:30 AM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009 COLOURED.
hand writing
just when i thought this day was a nonsense, just an ordinary one, i remember that i let daisy read my handwriting. i have to admit that everything she said was the truth. i hate hearing all those things. waah. i shouldn't have let her read it. but she was pretty honest good thing we're friends because she really said it all. and even emphasizing that "kung hindi wala, malungkot ang lovelife mo..." ouch doisy. that was really the last thing i wanna hear.
he's not texting. and i dont want to elaborate that right now.
11:20 PM
Thursday, July 09, 2009 COLOURED.
my real love
i never imagined loving a cat. she was a very sweet pet. a week ago she was brought at our humble home by my sister. she was so shy and didnt want to go out of her cage. but now she's at ease roaming around the house. taking a nap beside my mom was never a problem for her. she cuddles with every human present in the house (o well except my eldest brother). my brother hates the cat. i dont know why. he said he doesnt care because the kitty was just a half breed persian. i dont really care if spag is a half breed. she's going back to her original owner.. i love her and i'll surely miss her. before i thought i could only use fish for a pet. i never really imagined myself too attached with spag. but i have to let go. i guess that's what i really have to learn not just with spag but with people as well. to let go and be okay with it.
for starters. let me thank God for letting me have this life.
thank you to my upper household they were the first to greet me. thanks for the birthday cake. i was actually hoping for letters. and of course vanilla ice cream. but they gave me a cake. ;) a beautiful one. i love it. thank you from the bottom of my heart.
and Earl was sweet enough to greet me on time. i received his message at exactly 12am. ;) aw.
well. the day had just begun. ;) im excited for the welcome party later today. i am so blessed to celebrate my birthday in unity with Christ and with the whole yfc west b commbased. ;)
a day before my birthday and i was absent at school today. last practice for welcome party and it would probably the last time that we're gonna do this together. we are asked to form a new group for the commbased conference. I'll truly miss my music min household. but we all grow in our service and we have to let others grow with their talents. first time that we bonded. it's RT's bday. thanks for the sharks fin. hehehe. happy birthday man! ur so matanda na! hahaha!
i still need to go to our monthly prayer meeting so, I'm gonna bounce.
ciao.
8:15 PM
third
so i cant open the original entry that i was gonna post here. well 2 more days before my birthday and i cant really remember exactly the things that i wrote in the erased entry. well.
i will update more. too bad. the earsed entry was better than this.
i remember i reconciled with francis and leo today
and i had dinner with bea cheen vonn and erac.
that's all for now.
**happy bday, earvin and marianne. ;P
12:10 AM
Thursday, July 02, 2009 COLOURED.
A year of SErvice
just got home from WB welcome party Storycon. ;)
i dont really wanna go but my feet dragged me at paangbundok.
i was surprised to see a few people. i expected a larger crowd. i guess people are really busy nowadays.
the whole experience made me think that this was God's plan for me. to make me realize that this is what i was born for. i miss this, serving. Sharing ideas and everything. it was just last year that i am so overwhelmed. i told myself that this is what i do best. SERVING GOD. what happened? last year, at storycon God Called me to be a chapter head. looking back to the past year of me serving as a chapter head, i dont really know if i made my God proud of having a servant like me.
i am still looking forward for God's plan for me. and i still have to wait for God's surprises. ;)
i should PRAY. I believe it really helps. ;)
11:22 PM
Wednesday, July 01, 2009 COLOURED.
whatever things.
I'm turning twenty in few days time and right now i want to humor and entertain myself by typing 20 whatevers that pops out of my head right now.
20. I'm thinking of writing a gift list. those that i want to receive on my birthday, I'm surfing the net for affordable laptop bags. if you guys happen to be struggling of deciding what to give me.. i would be very thankful if you'll buy me a laptop bag. ;)
19. I'm thinking of what else to do for bea's 18th bday tomorrow. i'm not very good with surprises. i just love them if i was the one who will be surprised. ha-ha! im so sorry. im gonna try to think of that later before i shut my eyes.
18. i am thinking of the welcome party on sunday(same day of my birthday) well im actually more concern with my members.. who's gonna be in charge becos my partner and i will be going to the venue earlier bcos we're part of the music min. but im sure we'll figure something out tomorrow.
17. i am thinking of Leo and Francis. as much as i hate them right now. i know i overreacted but i'm pissed so they better back-off. unless they'll make it up in time for my bday.
16. im thinking of the next chapters of midnight sun. so yea after almost a year, i finally read chapters 1-12 of midnight sun ebook that thea gave me almost a year ago.. i wonder where to get the whole stuff. if ever its done.
15. i am thinking of answering my familiaris consortio homework. it's really very long and i am too idle to work right now.
14. i am thinking of myk. will he ever offer a descent apology. dang. get lost in my mind now-
13. i am thinking of themes, gimmicks and other things for our chapter assembly on the third sunday. i should come up with something really interesting and new for the members. of course my whole household will help me. ;)
12. im thinking of bringing the laptop tomorrow for further research on my feasibility study. i better start now, i'm targetting that best feasib study award. ;)
11. since i haven't registered for wi-fi connection at school, i will have to look for free wifi access around ust tomorrow.
10. i just realized i have to do a lot of things right now. and here i am, doing this stuff. argh.
9. i just read BES' message and it made me realize that i cant bring the laptop tomorrow. fcuk.
8. honestly, i thought about this or rather him, evrytime my mind doesnt work, it automatically wanders and looks for him. ha-ha. im sorry. it has become a natural thing. a habit.
7. i just copied kiss me thru the phone mp3 file from cam's folder to my memory card. ;) i just luv it. aw. i miss AG.
6. i still have to figure out how to tell leo that his MC book was missing. right now i just cant. we're not on the speaking terms.
5. yey! i just found on the net the lyrics of a worship song that ive been searching for a very long time now. it's kinda hard becos i dont know the tile. but now,, its called "Your Eveything" i really love it. it inspires me. gotta have a copy of the mp3.
4. so i gave up finding an mp3 file online of the song Your Everything. i should probably buy the woodstruck cd. ;)
3. i wonder wether e's still up or he's already asleep. i didnt get any msg from him today, it's not that he's texting everyday but i really miss him big time. i should probably see him soon.
2. i have a dillema regarding what happened to me few weeks ago. i dont really know if its necessary to tell e what happened. this one i dont wanna think. so -
1. right now i have to think of what to do saturday night cos we're having a PM @ my partner's place and im still not ready to be there.. IDK. it crazy.
im out.
11:50 PM
ola!
first of July and i am so HAPPY! cos its the start of a month long celebration of my birthday! ;)
;) fought with 2 of my favorite guy friends. i hate them. ;O
i wont let that get to me..
HAPPY BDAY ARMIE! ;)
8:40 PM
Wednesday, July 29, 2009 COLOURED.
a message of Love from GOD
RMI got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
...that you cannot wait anymore.
The moment has finally come. You have no choice. You have to take that step now. Now. Not tomorrow, not in an hour, - Now! If anyone else is reading this, they would be confused. But not you. You know exactly what we mean. Do it. Now.
++for the past few days that i read God's message, the only thing that he wants for me right now is complete happiness. and i will only achieve it by letting go of earl. by moving on with life. and today. he said it. i should let go NOW. not later. not tomorrow or next week. LET GO NOW.
i am still undergoing emotional stress. i wanna cry. i really do. even if there are a lot of excuses not to think of him i still do. i think of him during travel to school and when it was time to go home. why is it so hard to let him go? why is this so hard for me to do? i wish i can put into words all these emotions. i'm tired of crying and being lonely. i am tired of waiting but i dont know if i can let go. i cant. i just cant.
i was looking for my journal like crazy. i thought i lost it. actually i forgot all about it. it made me cry when i found it somewhere safe. i cant remember putting it there. this journal was a gift from Irish last year. i received it july and decided to use it December. the start of my love adventure. everything that's not written online were written here. I'm freaking out when i couldn't find it because everything in here were confidential. and they were all personal. almost all entries concerns earl. i was laughing when i reread it. i realize that i was never learning. that i am really too stubborn. i always tell myself.. "will i ever learn". Im having a hard time deciding whether to call it off or stay.
i dont know now. i have a lot on my mind.. school stuffs. yfc thingies. .i dont need this right now. cant he just support me or atleast put a smile on my face. he's still not texting. i dont know anymore. i just dont want to think of anything about him right now. argh. but its hard. super.. ;O
just when i thought this day was a nonsense, just an ordinary one, i remember that i let daisy read my handwriting. i have to admit that everything she said was the truth. i hate hearing all those things. waah. i shouldn't have let her read it. but she was pretty honest good thing we're friends because she really said it all. and even emphasizing that "kung hindi wala, malungkot ang lovelife mo..." ouch doisy. that was really the last thing i wanna hear.
he's not texting. and i dont want to elaborate that right now.
i never imagined loving a cat. she was a very sweet pet. a week ago she was brought at our humble home by my sister. she was so shy and didnt want to go out of her cage. but now she's at ease roaming around the house. taking a nap beside my mom was never a problem for her. she cuddles with every human present in the house (o well except my eldest brother). my brother hates the cat. i dont know why. he said he doesnt care because the kitty was just a half breed persian. i dont really care if spag is a half breed. she's going back to her original owner.. i love her and i'll surely miss her. before i thought i could only use fish for a pet. i never really imagined myself too attached with spag. but i have to let go. i guess that's what i really have to learn not just with spag but with people as well. to let go and be okay with it.
for starters. let me thank God for letting me have this life.
thank you to my upper household they were the first to greet me. thanks for the birthday cake. i was actually hoping for letters. and of course vanilla ice cream. but they gave me a cake. ;) a beautiful one. i love it. thank you from the bottom of my heart.
and Earl was sweet enough to greet me on time. i received his message at exactly 12am. ;) aw.
well. the day had just begun. ;) im excited for the welcome party later today. i am so blessed to celebrate my birthday in unity with Christ and with the whole yfc west b commbased. ;)
a day before my birthday and i was absent at school today. last practice for welcome party and it would probably the last time that we're gonna do this together. we are asked to form a new group for the commbased conference. I'll truly miss my music min household. but we all grow in our service and we have to let others grow with their talents. first time that we bonded. it's RT's bday. thanks for the sharks fin. hehehe. happy birthday man! ur so matanda na! hahaha!
i still need to go to our monthly prayer meeting so, I'm gonna bounce.
so i cant open the original entry that i was gonna post here. well 2 more days before my birthday and i cant really remember exactly the things that i wrote in the erased entry. well.
i will update more. too bad. the earsed entry was better than this.
i remember i reconciled with francis and leo today
i dont really wanna go but my feet dragged me at paangbundok.
i was surprised to see a few people. i expected a larger crowd. i guess people are really busy nowadays.
the whole experience made me think that this was God's plan for me. to make me realize that this is what i was born for. i miss this, serving. Sharing ideas and everything. it was just last year that i am so overwhelmed. i told myself that this is what i do best. SERVING GOD. what happened? last year, at storycon God Called me to be a chapter head. looking back to the past year of me serving as a chapter head, i dont really know if i made my God proud of having a servant like me.
i am still looking forward for God's plan for me. and i still have to wait for God's surprises. ;)
I'm turning twenty in few days time and right now i want to humor and entertain myself by typing 20 whatevers that pops out of my head right now.
20. I'm thinking of writing a gift list. those that i want to receive on my birthday, I'm surfing the net for affordable laptop bags. if you guys happen to be struggling of deciding what to give me.. i would be very thankful if you'll buy me a laptop bag. ;)
19. I'm thinking of what else to do for bea's 18th bday tomorrow. i'm not very good with surprises. i just love them if i was the one who will be surprised. ha-ha! im so sorry. im gonna try to think of that later before i shut my eyes.
18. i am thinking of the welcome party on sunday(same day of my birthday) well im actually more concern with my members.. who's gonna be in charge becos my partner and i will be going to the venue earlier bcos we're part of the music min. but im sure we'll figure something out tomorrow.
17. i am thinking of Leo and Francis. as much as i hate them right now. i know i overreacted but i'm pissed so they better back-off. unless they'll make it up in time for my bday.
16. im thinking of the next chapters of midnight sun. so yea after almost a year, i finally read chapters 1-12 of midnight sun ebook that thea gave me almost a year ago.. i wonder where to get the whole stuff. if ever its done.
15. i am thinking of answering my familiaris consortio homework. it's really very long and i am too idle to work right now.
14. i am thinking of myk. will he ever offer a descent apology. dang. get lost in my mind now-
13. i am thinking of themes, gimmicks and other things for our chapter assembly on the third sunday. i should come up with something really interesting and new for the members. of course my whole household will help me. ;)
12. im thinking of bringing the laptop tomorrow for further research on my feasibility study. i better start now, i'm targetting that best feasib study award. ;)
11. since i haven't registered for wi-fi connection at school, i will have to look for free wifi access around ust tomorrow.
10. i just realized i have to do a lot of things right now. and here i am, doing this stuff. argh.
9. i just read BES' message and it made me realize that i cant bring the laptop tomorrow. fcuk.
8. honestly, i thought about this or rather him, evrytime my mind doesnt work, it automatically wanders and looks for him. ha-ha. im sorry. it has become a natural thing. a habit.
7. i just copied kiss me thru the phone mp3 file from cam's folder to my memory card. ;) i just luv it. aw. i miss AG.
6. i still have to figure out how to tell leo that his MC book was missing. right now i just cant. we're not on the speaking terms.
5. yey! i just found on the net the lyrics of a worship song that ive been searching for a very long time now. it's kinda hard becos i dont know the tile. but now,, its called "Your Eveything" i really love it. it inspires me. gotta have a copy of the mp3.
4. so i gave up finding an mp3 file online of the song Your Everything. i should probably buy the woodstruck cd. ;)
3. i wonder wether e's still up or he's already asleep. i didnt get any msg from him today, it's not that he's texting everyday but i really miss him big time. i should probably see him soon.
2. i have a dillema regarding what happened to me few weeks ago. i dont really know if its necessary to tell e what happened. this one i dont wanna think. so -
1. right now i have to think of what to do saturday night cos we're having a PM @ my partner's place and im still not ready to be there.. IDK. it crazy.
HELLO! VISITOR, A LIL PIECE OF INFO ABOUT the BLOGGER. YOU CAN CALL HER RMI SHE LOVE COLOURS. NO FAVORITISMS SHE CAN GO WITH ANY COLORS DEPENDING ON HER MOOD !
the blogger is a graduating student of Marketing Management in the University of Santo Tomas
loves eating and chatting with friends
major interest is fashion and tv series such as Supernatural, One tree hill, Glee, Gossip girl, boys over flowers, and many more.
I love MUSIC
Since i love music and i am addicted to it, i'll post here lyrics and chords(I'll try to fix that soon) of my favorite songs.
ive got a playlist from mixpod. will update this hmm.. REGULARLY. for now. get sick of the current songs. hehe!
My new Favorite... RT played this as a reflection song during our youth camp.
I've been Lokking for this for the longest time, it actually slipped my mind,
Good thing He played this.. Thanx RT
YOUR EVERYTHING
(WOODSTRUCK ALBUM 2)
In the darkness of life
I search for your light
You alone are my hope oh Lord
Its You Alone..Its You alone
I surrender to You
Take all of my pride
You alone are my savior Lord
Its You alone... Its You alone...
Chorus
You gave up your life for me
You set me free and You
showed me your love
You've given your Everything
for me to live
Bridge
Never have you walked away from me
YOu were always there when I need you
Now and forever I will serve You my master
I will follow You
this one is a Worship song that really struck me during the REVIVE kasangga overnight.
im in love with it! ;)
THROUGH IT ALL
HILLSONG UNITED
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You
Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
HOPES
Its a hope of COLOURS
-i wish for HIGHer GRADES----------
-I wish for a HAPPY AND CONTINuOUS LOVE LIFE----------
-I wish and hope for a strong faith and stronger service----------
-I wish to see the sky smile again----------
-I wish for a year full of Fun----------
-I wish for myself happiness----------
-I wish my friends and family happiness, good health and peace of mind---------
THE TODOLIST
MY TO DO LIST!
Laundry Business Feasibility study
SECTORCONFERENCE "HOMERUN"
HOUSEHOLD
Chapter assembly
Planning for November Youth Camp
METROCON
GRADPIC PHOTOSHOOT
here's my unofficial mtv for "the art of letting go by Mikaila" this was a requirement for my Integrated Marketing Communications subject. Doing this video was a total exasperation for me and tin. the guy from the vid was my dear friend Nikko Gomez who was kind enough to help me and tin and was very generous to let us use his condo unit and his face for the vid. thanx nikko.
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