well,, everybody's dying to know why i cut my hair short. some says that maybe because I'm heart broken(err.. maybe) here's the thing,,
i don't know what got into me. Ive been planning to cut my hair short before prelim exams. maybe because i really want to try something new. but I'm so absorbed with a lot of things that time so i wasn't able to visit the salon. ive been through a lot of emotional stuff lately and i really felt heavy inside. i tried my icecream but it didnt work that well. i attended the "kasangga" over night of our sector and one thing that struck me was what kuya paski said in the communication workshop. "you experienced things because God wants you to learn from it. dont dwell on it anymore... MOVE ON!" thats what i need! MOVE ON! i told myself I WILL!
Monday morning i was really uncomfortable with my hair. i really really want to get rid of it. while travelling from school to home, i planned to visit the salon beore going straight home, but i considered the things that i have with me.. so i went home first and thought about my decision. an hour after i told my mom to come with me to the salon and POOF! thats it! bye bye LONG and wavy hair and HELLO SHORT HAIR!!!!!!! i felt really good after the transformation. i felt good after the longest week of my life. it's like i dont want to look back to the past week that i have been thru. I'm done. ITS over.
just when i thought Im ready. he texted. and asked how i was. i told him i was fine. and that i had cut my hair short he asked why.. i told him "to release stress and negative emotions..!" hahaha! what a stupid answer. i'm happy with how things are going right now. not because he's being sweet again and all. but because i know for myself that what we had before the start of this week is over, and if he wants to win me again, he has to work hard,, really really hard.. to get me.. again..
i feel better today. i had my hair cut short. well.. ive been wanting to try this for a very long time now. it feels weird though. but it really helped a lot. it made me feel better. i felt that this is the start of the "moving on stage".. he texted.. "hi mie,. musta?;)"
i still feel a little giddy when i read it. it's normal ryt? i dont wanna be bitter over things. i am trying my best. i have to admit that i still want things to be better, but most of all, i dont want to lose our friendship. so for the sake of that "friendship" i'll still be okey with him. just like before december. how i treated him before december.
aaw. it made me think of everything again. but its fine..
it's fine..
i am fine.
8:44 PM
Saturday, January 24, 2009 COLOURED.
its early saturday. im supposed to be sleeping but i want to blog.. well, yesterday(friday) since i woke up until now, i did not text him. well, he did not text me either. im so full of this.., my previous blogs were all about him. its always him. i really got used to him. he's my everyday. but now i don't know. i keep on telling myself to not waste my time thinking about someone who doesn't do the same for me.
and now i'm blabbering about him again. (agh!) it has become a habit.
there's this song that caught my ears since the very first time i heard it. i searched for it's lyrics here it is:
Jack Wagner All I Need
Kissing you is not what I had planned And now I'm not so sure just where I stand I wasn't looking for true love But now you're looking at me You're the only one I can think of You're the only one I see
CHORUS: All I need Is just a little more time To be sure what I feel Is it all in my mind Cause it seems so hard to believe That you're all I need
Yes it's true we've all been hurt before But it doesn't seem to matter anymore It may be a chance we're taking But it always comes to this If this isn't love we're making Then I don't know what it is
No stars are out tonight But we're shining our own light And it's never felt so bright Cause girl the way I'm feeling It's easy to believe That you're all I need
Ahhhh You're all I need Oooooh ahhhh
"Kissing you is not what I had planned And now I'm not so sure just where I stand"
super thank you. this is really what i need.(sarcastic tone)
everything that happened the night when the sky smiled all came back to me. it's really hard because i tresured that moment.. it was actually one of the best nights that i had in 2008. and i am not so sure if he looks at it the same way. i thought that after that night, everything will fall into place. but until now, I'm still not sure where I stand...
i want him to tell me to go away. i want to hear it from him. thats the only time that i will believe everything that 's been happening. that's when i'll believe that he's really gone that he has drifted away..
...far away from me.
1:03 AM
Thursday, January 22, 2009 COLOURED.
the real deal ( a continuation)
Saturday morning. i woke up late. my head really hurts and i wasn't able to review at all. my mind can't absorb all the information. so i took my exams without reviewing. luckily i surpassed it. well, Saturday is Liveloud night. i didn't expect him to be there because he told me he's not gonna come. i texted him, the usual messages every morning. and he did not. it was fine becos i thought maybe he's just busy or whatever.. i so badly want to ask him about his plans.. that maybe he's gonna celebrate it with friends or whatever.. but well no messages from him.. the liveloud concert was okay. it was uplifting because i was able to worship Him again. i was able to thank Him for all the good things and the blessings that he gave me. when it's time to go. my sister told me she saw my guy there. i was like NO WAY- i don't want to see him. i mean i don't want him to see me that i saw him. i don't want to see the look in his face. i don't want to see his reaction when he sees me. WTF. it hurts really. he went there and he did not told me. i mean, what's wrong with telling me that "hey, i decided to go to the concert.." no messages from him til late that night. i was sad, upset, mad.. i don't know how i felt that time. it was like the saddest thing. i don't get it, why didn't he tell me?, i mean there is really a big possibility that we are going to bumped into each other there.. is he hiding something?. he really do think he can get away there without me knowing that he's there..? gawd! what a stupid jerk.! i was super down that night that i decided to join anj and her friends at giligans trinoma. it was fun. we sang a few songs with the guest band. i want to apologize and at the same time thank anj's friends for trying to make me feel happy. "thanks guys!' *back to the main topic* when i checked my phone, it was past 12 already which means it's his birthday. i had plans beforehand, i told myself that i'm gonna be the first one to greet him. and that i'll buy him a special gift. that i'm gonna surprise him on his birthday. but all of my plans for him had vanished the moment i felt the sadness. after a long argument with myself whether i am gonna greet him "happy birthday, i saw you at the concert.." or "happy birthday nice shirt!" i ended up greeting him using my sun number "happy Birthday -(my name here)" that was the only time that he texted me since late night friday. he said his thanks and told me that he has gone to the concert. and i told him, yea. anj saw you there,, and i said, "i thought you don't wanna come?" and he replied that our friend asked him to come, so he did. our conversation was short I'm not sure but i think he's the one who did not reply to my message. Eventhough i feel bad and a lil mad with him, i still think he has some reasons for not telling me things. i went home with anj at around 2:30 am.
i woke up not super late sunday morning. there were no gudmorning messages from him. mom and i decided to watch a movie that afternoon. while waiting for the movie screening time, mom and i roamed around the mall, i reconsidered buying my gift for him and i was thinking of texting him and asking him to get his gift from me. but there's still no txt.. so i decided to text him instead : A: hi. how was your day so far? E: eto, dvd marathon.. ikaw? A: ow.. ako movie with mom. E: ahh.. okey ingat! A: tnx. nagmass kna?
-no reply
then he texted when i was already watching the film..
E: mie.(smiley here) alam mo landlyn ni (our friend's name here)? A: ndi e..
- waah! super pissed! that night i'm still waiting for his message but i guess he's not gonna send me one, so for the last time i texted him.
A:"hi. for the last time, Happy birthday! i hope u enjoyed this day. goodnight(his name here) E: tnx2. anu gwa m? A: nothing, i'll sleep in a while.. E: okay. inom lng ako with (his friend's names here) A: ayt. enjoy! E: tnx. mwah
-that's it!
the next day, i didn't feel like going to school so i did not woke up early. i ym'd my close friend, to make the long conversation short, he asked me if i went to my guy's party last night. and then i told him No, why would i go there..? he said he didn't go either and asked me if i was invited. i told him that maybe i wasn't because he didn't tell me a thing. once again, it caused pain in my heart. i just didn't think about it too much because i know I'm the loser if i let myself drown with the sadness and the madness. that evening my other friend confirmed our visit to nikki's wake tuesday night. i told him, I'm still up for it but he has to ask other friends to come along because anj isn't going to be there with us. he said that our friend (my guy) is coming along with us, and then i said. okey. the next morning my guy texted me again, but not the usual gudmorning message. it's like a /gm for everybody. i replied to his message and told him that "kasama ka pla samin mamaya?" then he said "yep. kasama ako!" that afternoon. my other friend texted me that my guy cant make it. then i received a txt from him saying he's sorry he cant make it because he's really tired because of their new project launching. i told him, it's fine. my friend and i pursued the plan of going to nikki's wake. we talked about many things, and i tried to fish about my guy's birthday. my friend told me he was at home last sunday and done nothing. he also told me that last saturday our friend(my guy) attended the concert with this girl, because she bought the ticket and he had no choice but to go. again i felt a pinched in my heart. but i just laughed at it and acted as if i didn't care. it's pretty hard because it really hurts.
i still don't know what to believe. right now, i don't care anymore if he went to the concert with her. i just don't want to care anymore.
it still upsets me that he's not texting normal (meaning.. our usual exchange of textmessages) i changed my phone and it does'nt have those "U" that looks like a smiley.. sometimes i think when i don't use it, he assumes that im mad.. or im not interested,, and i really miss his goodnight messages. whenever i texted, he's not gonna reply. he'll text and i'll reply but then,, no reply from him. i'm getting really tired of this. i somehow know whats going on behind all of this. i think he's losing interest in me. he wants to end things up.. slowly.. by not texting me everyday.. every hour of the day..
if he wants this to be over, then fine.. JUST TELL ME.
dear E. i dont know what you're thinking. but if its getting things over between us, it's fine. i know this day will come.. i already conditioned my mind for this day. if you still love her just tell me. i wont promise i wont get hurt, but its fine. i allowed this to happen and i know the consequences that i have to face. sure i'll miss you, but i dont want to be with you if you still love her. i dont want this because i know it's going to be hard.. but.. i'm letting you go.
9:16 PM
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 COLOURED.
the real deal
it started last Thursday.. we watched bedtime stories together. it was one of those nights when i feel super happy being with him. that was like "our" pre-celebration of his birthday. after our date i phoned one of my closest friend to confirm our bonding the following day. a supposed-to-be short conversation lasted for hours. and the topic was Him and Me. i understand my friend for not being happy about what's happening between me and 'my' guy. i mean my friend is right! if he really likes me, he would tell our friends about us. little do i know that before we meet for our date my friend and my guy talked over the phone.. and still my guy didnt metion anything about me, instead he asked about the other girl and another girl who is also is close to my friend. it didnt really broke my heart. but it hurts. the phone conversation lasted for three hours, i slept at 3am. January 19 friday, i woke up and received some messages regarding a friend who is in the hospital.. the msg said, she's in critical condition, 50/50... i then closed my eyes and fell back to sleep. when i opened my eyes again, my sister told me, she's dead. and i really cant believe it. NIKKI, my friend is dead. i was like NO- youre kidding me right? i phoned my close friend again to tell him im still up for the bonding. and i confirmed if the news were true, and he said yes. and i dont believe him still. that afternoon, after work, i went to my friends wake. i'm fighting myself not to cry.. i was about to, but when i saw my friend there, and her face,, she's smiling. and i told myself, she's happy, she with Him already. so the tears just went back to my eyes. but it's like a dream, she's like just sleeping. i still cant believe it. that night. he's also there. it's awkward really. that was the first time that we're together surrounded with friends. friends who had no idea about how i feel, who had no idea about what we are going through. maybe nikki knows it by now. saying plain hello has become extra hard.. and saying goodbye is a little bit harder. you know what they say about not saying goodbye when youre in a wake. i just remembered it right now, i said goodbye to him...
me: goodbye *him, squeezed my hand him: bye
(to be continued...)
12:42 AM
Friday, January 09, 2009 COLOURED.
School rants
first week of back to school from the xmas holidays. so far-not so good. i already skipped classes and woke up late for school. gawd will i ever get used to waking up too early again. =O
next week will be a critical week for us because its our examination week again. i really really need to study for this. i don't want to risk again. as time passes i realized that i need to be more serious and getting into the real world seems so near now. I'm in my third year already and one year hopefully I'll graduate from ust. i have no school orgs, my resume wouldnt be that competitive compared to others.. argh! but then there's still time.. sometimes i regret not studying real hard.
enough with that, i still need to find an ebook of the BOS and review..
ciao
8:18 PM
Tuesday, January 06, 2009 COLOURED.
LSS
Cause I am falling in love (falling in love) with you No never I'm never gonna stop Falling in love with you... With you...
what's up with the song?! hahaha! i really cant get over with this one.. =)
RUNAWAY.. with you?! there's nothing like me and you
2:47 PM
Sunday, January 04, 2009 COLOURED.
"u make me feel happy, it scares me. i don't know if i make u feel the same way."
why do i always have to be the one who open this up. i hate myself for letting my guard down.! i knew it! i should stop believing that there is something i could do to make things work for us. because if there is, i shouldn't be doubting and feeling that he doesn't like me enough. or maybe he's right. i shouldn't be thinking too much. but i cant, that's me, i think things too much,. ow gawd! i cant believe I'm posting this! argh!
4:11 AM
Friday, January 02, 2009 COLOURED.
start the year with a BANG!
12:11:36am happy nw year. .i luv u so. .
00:00:00am happy new yr.:) salamat:)
-sablay??! ='|
argh! wat a way to start a year.
i got really stuck there. i did not expect that kind of msg. well, i thought were going steady for what we are right now, which means we are special friends, i love you is the last 3 words that i am expecting from you. OMG! but i have to admit. he got me there. it really made my day, i just dont know if my reply is any good. i am oh so sorry, i dont know what to say. well. watever.
my year started right. i just hope i could keep up.
HAPPY NEW YEAR FELLAS!
1:17 AM
Thursday, January 29, 2009 COLOURED.
starting over
my shortest hair ever.
well,, everybody's dying to know why i cut my hair short. some says that maybe because I'm heart broken(err.. maybe) here's the thing,,
i don't know what got into me. Ive been planning to cut my hair short before prelim exams. maybe because i really want to try something new. but I'm so absorbed with a lot of things that time so i wasn't able to visit the salon. ive been through a lot of emotional stuff lately and i really felt heavy inside. i tried my icecream but it didnt work that well. i attended the "kasangga" over night of our sector and one thing that struck me was what kuya paski said in the communication workshop. "you experienced things because God wants you to learn from it. dont dwell on it anymore... MOVE ON!" thats what i need! MOVE ON! i told myself I WILL!
Monday morning i was really uncomfortable with my hair. i really really want to get rid of it. while travelling from school to home, i planned to visit the salon beore going straight home, but i considered the things that i have with me.. so i went home first and thought about my decision. an hour after i told my mom to come with me to the salon and POOF! thats it! bye bye LONG and wavy hair and HELLO SHORT HAIR!!!!!!! i felt really good after the transformation. i felt good after the longest week of my life. it's like i dont want to look back to the past week that i have been thru. I'm done. ITS over.
just when i thought Im ready. he texted. and asked how i was. i told him i was fine. and that i had cut my hair short he asked why.. i told him "to release stress and negative emotions..!" hahaha! what a stupid answer. i'm happy with how things are going right now. not because he's being sweet again and all. but because i know for myself that what we had before the start of this week is over, and if he wants to win me again, he has to work hard,, really really hard.. to get me.. again..
i feel better today. i had my hair cut short. well.. ive been wanting to try this for a very long time now. it feels weird though. but it really helped a lot. it made me feel better. i felt that this is the start of the "moving on stage".. he texted.. "hi mie,. musta?;)"
i still feel a little giddy when i read it. it's normal ryt? i dont wanna be bitter over things. i am trying my best. i have to admit that i still want things to be better, but most of all, i dont want to lose our friendship. so for the sake of that "friendship" i'll still be okey with him. just like before december. how i treated him before december.
aaw. it made me think of everything again. but its fine..
its early saturday. im supposed to be sleeping but i want to blog.. well, yesterday(friday) since i woke up until now, i did not text him. well, he did not text me either. im so full of this.., my previous blogs were all about him. its always him. i really got used to him. he's my everyday. but now i don't know. i keep on telling myself to not waste my time thinking about someone who doesn't do the same for me.
and now i'm blabbering about him again. (agh!) it has become a habit.
there's this song that caught my ears since the very first time i heard it. i searched for it's lyrics here it is:
Jack Wagner All I Need
Kissing you is not what I had planned And now I'm not so sure just where I stand I wasn't looking for true love But now you're looking at me You're the only one I can think of You're the only one I see
CHORUS: All I need Is just a little more time To be sure what I feel Is it all in my mind Cause it seems so hard to believe That you're all I need
Yes it's true we've all been hurt before But it doesn't seem to matter anymore It may be a chance we're taking But it always comes to this If this isn't love we're making Then I don't know what it is
No stars are out tonight But we're shining our own light And it's never felt so bright Cause girl the way I'm feeling It's easy to believe That you're all I need
Ahhhh You're all I need Oooooh ahhhh
"Kissing you is not what I had planned And now I'm not so sure just where I stand"
super thank you. this is really what i need.(sarcastic tone)
everything that happened the night when the sky smiled all came back to me. it's really hard because i tresured that moment.. it was actually one of the best nights that i had in 2008. and i am not so sure if he looks at it the same way. i thought that after that night, everything will fall into place. but until now, I'm still not sure where I stand...
i want him to tell me to go away. i want to hear it from him. thats the only time that i will believe everything that 's been happening. that's when i'll believe that he's really gone that he has drifted away..
Saturday morning. i woke up late. my head really hurts and i wasn't able to review at all. my mind can't absorb all the information. so i took my exams without reviewing. luckily i surpassed it. well, Saturday is Liveloud night. i didn't expect him to be there because he told me he's not gonna come. i texted him, the usual messages every morning. and he did not. it was fine becos i thought maybe he's just busy or whatever.. i so badly want to ask him about his plans.. that maybe he's gonna celebrate it with friends or whatever.. but well no messages from him.. the liveloud concert was okay. it was uplifting because i was able to worship Him again. i was able to thank Him for all the good things and the blessings that he gave me. when it's time to go. my sister told me she saw my guy there. i was like NO WAY- i don't want to see him. i mean i don't want him to see me that i saw him. i don't want to see the look in his face. i don't want to see his reaction when he sees me. WTF. it hurts really. he went there and he did not told me. i mean, what's wrong with telling me that "hey, i decided to go to the concert.." no messages from him til late that night. i was sad, upset, mad.. i don't know how i felt that time. it was like the saddest thing. i don't get it, why didn't he tell me?, i mean there is really a big possibility that we are going to bumped into each other there.. is he hiding something?. he really do think he can get away there without me knowing that he's there..? gawd! what a stupid jerk.! i was super down that night that i decided to join anj and her friends at giligans trinoma. it was fun. we sang a few songs with the guest band. i want to apologize and at the same time thank anj's friends for trying to make me feel happy. "thanks guys!' *back to the main topic* when i checked my phone, it was past 12 already which means it's his birthday. i had plans beforehand, i told myself that i'm gonna be the first one to greet him. and that i'll buy him a special gift. that i'm gonna surprise him on his birthday. but all of my plans for him had vanished the moment i felt the sadness. after a long argument with myself whether i am gonna greet him "happy birthday, i saw you at the concert.." or "happy birthday nice shirt!" i ended up greeting him using my sun number "happy Birthday -(my name here)" that was the only time that he texted me since late night friday. he said his thanks and told me that he has gone to the concert. and i told him, yea. anj saw you there,, and i said, "i thought you don't wanna come?" and he replied that our friend asked him to come, so he did. our conversation was short I'm not sure but i think he's the one who did not reply to my message. Eventhough i feel bad and a lil mad with him, i still think he has some reasons for not telling me things. i went home with anj at around 2:30 am.
i woke up not super late sunday morning. there were no gudmorning messages from him. mom and i decided to watch a movie that afternoon. while waiting for the movie screening time, mom and i roamed around the mall, i reconsidered buying my gift for him and i was thinking of texting him and asking him to get his gift from me. but there's still no txt.. so i decided to text him instead : A: hi. how was your day so far? E: eto, dvd marathon.. ikaw? A: ow.. ako movie with mom. E: ahh.. okey ingat! A: tnx. nagmass kna?
-no reply
then he texted when i was already watching the film..
E: mie.(smiley here) alam mo landlyn ni (our friend's name here)? A: ndi e..
- waah! super pissed! that night i'm still waiting for his message but i guess he's not gonna send me one, so for the last time i texted him.
A:"hi. for the last time, Happy birthday! i hope u enjoyed this day. goodnight(his name here) E: tnx2. anu gwa m? A: nothing, i'll sleep in a while.. E: okay. inom lng ako with (his friend's names here) A: ayt. enjoy! E: tnx. mwah
-that's it!
the next day, i didn't feel like going to school so i did not woke up early. i ym'd my close friend, to make the long conversation short, he asked me if i went to my guy's party last night. and then i told him No, why would i go there..? he said he didn't go either and asked me if i was invited. i told him that maybe i wasn't because he didn't tell me a thing. once again, it caused pain in my heart. i just didn't think about it too much because i know I'm the loser if i let myself drown with the sadness and the madness. that evening my other friend confirmed our visit to nikki's wake tuesday night. i told him, I'm still up for it but he has to ask other friends to come along because anj isn't going to be there with us. he said that our friend (my guy) is coming along with us, and then i said. okey. the next morning my guy texted me again, but not the usual gudmorning message. it's like a /gm for everybody. i replied to his message and told him that "kasama ka pla samin mamaya?" then he said "yep. kasama ako!" that afternoon. my other friend texted me that my guy cant make it. then i received a txt from him saying he's sorry he cant make it because he's really tired because of their new project launching. i told him, it's fine. my friend and i pursued the plan of going to nikki's wake. we talked about many things, and i tried to fish about my guy's birthday. my friend told me he was at home last sunday and done nothing. he also told me that last saturday our friend(my guy) attended the concert with this girl, because she bought the ticket and he had no choice but to go. again i felt a pinched in my heart. but i just laughed at it and acted as if i didn't care. it's pretty hard because it really hurts.
i still don't know what to believe. right now, i don't care anymore if he went to the concert with her. i just don't want to care anymore.
it still upsets me that he's not texting normal (meaning.. our usual exchange of textmessages) i changed my phone and it does'nt have those "U" that looks like a smiley.. sometimes i think when i don't use it, he assumes that im mad.. or im not interested,, and i really miss his goodnight messages. whenever i texted, he's not gonna reply. he'll text and i'll reply but then,, no reply from him. i'm getting really tired of this. i somehow know whats going on behind all of this. i think he's losing interest in me. he wants to end things up.. slowly.. by not texting me everyday.. every hour of the day..
if he wants this to be over, then fine.. JUST TELL ME.
dear E. i dont know what you're thinking. but if its getting things over between us, it's fine. i know this day will come.. i already conditioned my mind for this day. if you still love her just tell me. i wont promise i wont get hurt, but its fine. i allowed this to happen and i know the consequences that i have to face. sure i'll miss you, but i dont want to be with you if you still love her. i dont want this because i know it's going to be hard.. but.. i'm letting you go.
it started last Thursday.. we watched bedtime stories together. it was one of those nights when i feel super happy being with him. that was like "our" pre-celebration of his birthday. after our date i phoned one of my closest friend to confirm our bonding the following day. a supposed-to-be short conversation lasted for hours. and the topic was Him and Me. i understand my friend for not being happy about what's happening between me and 'my' guy. i mean my friend is right! if he really likes me, he would tell our friends about us. little do i know that before we meet for our date my friend and my guy talked over the phone.. and still my guy didnt metion anything about me, instead he asked about the other girl and another girl who is also is close to my friend. it didnt really broke my heart. but it hurts. the phone conversation lasted for three hours, i slept at 3am. January 19 friday, i woke up and received some messages regarding a friend who is in the hospital.. the msg said, she's in critical condition, 50/50... i then closed my eyes and fell back to sleep. when i opened my eyes again, my sister told me, she's dead. and i really cant believe it. NIKKI, my friend is dead. i was like NO- youre kidding me right? i phoned my close friend again to tell him im still up for the bonding. and i confirmed if the news were true, and he said yes. and i dont believe him still. that afternoon, after work, i went to my friends wake. i'm fighting myself not to cry.. i was about to, but when i saw my friend there, and her face,, she's smiling. and i told myself, she's happy, she with Him already. so the tears just went back to my eyes. but it's like a dream, she's like just sleeping. i still cant believe it. that night. he's also there. it's awkward really. that was the first time that we're together surrounded with friends. friends who had no idea about how i feel, who had no idea about what we are going through. maybe nikki knows it by now. saying plain hello has become extra hard.. and saying goodbye is a little bit harder. you know what they say about not saying goodbye when youre in a wake. i just remembered it right now, i said goodbye to him...
first week of back to school from the xmas holidays. so far-not so good. i already skipped classes and woke up late for school. gawd will i ever get used to waking up too early again. =O
next week will be a critical week for us because its our examination week again. i really really need to study for this. i don't want to risk again. as time passes i realized that i need to be more serious and getting into the real world seems so near now. I'm in my third year already and one year hopefully I'll graduate from ust. i have no school orgs, my resume wouldnt be that competitive compared to others.. argh! but then there's still time.. sometimes i regret not studying real hard.
enough with that, i still need to find an ebook of the BOS and review..
"u make me feel happy, it scares me. i don't know if i make u feel the same way."
why do i always have to be the one who open this up. i hate myself for letting my guard down.! i knew it! i should stop believing that there is something i could do to make things work for us. because if there is, i shouldn't be doubting and feeling that he doesn't like me enough. or maybe he's right. i shouldn't be thinking too much. but i cant, that's me, i think things too much,. ow gawd! i cant believe I'm posting this! argh!
i got really stuck there. i did not expect that kind of msg. well, i thought were going steady for what we are right now, which means we are special friends, i love you is the last 3 words that i am expecting from you. OMG! but i have to admit. he got me there. it really made my day, i just dont know if my reply is any good. i am oh so sorry, i dont know what to say. well. watever.
my year started right. i just hope i could keep up.
HELLO! VISITOR, A LIL PIECE OF INFO ABOUT the BLOGGER. YOU CAN CALL HER RMI SHE LOVE COLOURS. NO FAVORITISMS SHE CAN GO WITH ANY COLORS DEPENDING ON HER MOOD !
the blogger is a graduating student of Marketing Management in the University of Santo Tomas
loves eating and chatting with friends
major interest is fashion and tv series such as Supernatural, One tree hill, Glee, Gossip girl, boys over flowers, and many more.
I love MUSIC
Since i love music and i am addicted to it, i'll post here lyrics and chords(I'll try to fix that soon) of my favorite songs.
ive got a playlist from mixpod. will update this hmm.. REGULARLY. for now. get sick of the current songs. hehe!
My new Favorite... RT played this as a reflection song during our youth camp.
I've been Lokking for this for the longest time, it actually slipped my mind,
Good thing He played this.. Thanx RT
YOUR EVERYTHING
(WOODSTRUCK ALBUM 2)
In the darkness of life
I search for your light
You alone are my hope oh Lord
Its You Alone..Its You alone
I surrender to You
Take all of my pride
You alone are my savior Lord
Its You alone... Its You alone...
Chorus
You gave up your life for me
You set me free and You
showed me your love
You've given your Everything
for me to live
Bridge
Never have you walked away from me
YOu were always there when I need you
Now and forever I will serve You my master
I will follow You
this one is a Worship song that really struck me during the REVIVE kasangga overnight.
im in love with it! ;)
THROUGH IT ALL
HILLSONG UNITED
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You
Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
HOPES
Its a hope of COLOURS
-i wish for HIGHer GRADES----------
-I wish for a HAPPY AND CONTINuOUS LOVE LIFE----------
-I wish and hope for a strong faith and stronger service----------
-I wish to see the sky smile again----------
-I wish for a year full of Fun----------
-I wish for myself happiness----------
-I wish my friends and family happiness, good health and peace of mind---------
THE TODOLIST
MY TO DO LIST!
Laundry Business Feasibility study
SECTORCONFERENCE "HOMERUN"
HOUSEHOLD
Chapter assembly
Planning for November Youth Camp
METROCON
GRADPIC PHOTOSHOOT
here's my unofficial mtv for "the art of letting go by Mikaila" this was a requirement for my Integrated Marketing Communications subject. Doing this video was a total exasperation for me and tin. the guy from the vid was my dear friend Nikko Gomez who was kind enough to help me and tin and was very generous to let us use his condo unit and his face for the vid. thanx nikko.
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