Saturday morning. i woke up late. my head really hurts and i wasn't able to review at all. my mind can't absorb all the information. so i took my exams without reviewing. luckily i surpassed it. well, Saturday is Liveloud night. i didn't expect him to be there because he told me he's not gonna come. i texted him, the usual messages every morning. and he did not. it was fine becos i thought maybe he's just busy or whatever.. i so badly want to ask him about his plans.. that maybe he's gonna celebrate it with friends or whatever.. but well no messages from him.. the liveloud concert was okay. it was uplifting because i was able to worship Him again. i was able to thank Him for all the good things and the blessings that he gave me. when it's time to go. my sister told me she saw my guy there. i was like NO WAY- i don't want to see him. i mean i don't want him to see me that i saw him. i don't want to see the look in his face. i don't want to see his reaction when he sees me. WTF. it hurts really. he went there and he did not told me. i mean, what's wrong with telling me that "hey, i decided to go to the concert.." no messages from him til late that night. i was sad, upset, mad.. i don't know how i felt that time. it was like the saddest thing. i don't get it, why didn't he tell me?, i mean there is really a big possibility that we are going to bumped into each other there.. is he hiding something?. he really do think he can get away there without me knowing that he's there..? gawd! what a stupid jerk.! i was super down that night that i decided to join anj and her friends at giligans trinoma. it was fun. we sang a few songs with the guest band. i want to apologize and at the same time thank anj's friends for trying to make me feel happy. "thanks guys!' *back to the main topic* when i checked my phone, it was past 12 already which means it's his birthday. i had plans beforehand, i told myself that i'm gonna be the first one to greet him. and that i'll buy him a special gift. that i'm gonna surprise him on his birthday. but all of my plans for him had vanished the moment i felt the sadness. after a long argument with myself whether i am gonna greet him "happy birthday, i saw you at the concert.." or "happy birthday nice shirt!" i ended up greeting him using my sun number "happy Birthday -(my name here)" that was the only time that he texted me since late night friday. he said his thanks and told me that he has gone to the concert. and i told him, yea. anj saw you there,, and i said, "i thought you don't wanna come?" and he replied that our friend asked him to come, so he did. our conversation was short I'm not sure but i think he's the one who did not reply to my message. Eventhough i feel bad and a lil mad with him, i still think he has some reasons for not telling me things. i went home with anj at around 2:30 am.
i woke up not super late sunday morning. there were no gudmorning messages from him. mom and i decided to watch a movie that afternoon. while waiting for the movie screening time, mom and i roamed around the mall, i reconsidered buying my gift for him and i was thinking of texting him and asking him to get his gift from me. but there's still no txt.. so i decided to text him instead : A: hi. how was your day so far? E: eto, dvd marathon.. ikaw? A: ow.. ako movie with mom. E: ahh.. okey ingat! A: tnx. nagmass kna?
-no reply
then he texted when i was already watching the film..
E: mie.(smiley here) alam mo landlyn ni (our friend's name here)? A: ndi e..
- waah! super pissed! that night i'm still waiting for his message but i guess he's not gonna send me one, so for the last time i texted him.
A:"hi. for the last time, Happy birthday! i hope u enjoyed this day. goodnight(his name here) E: tnx2. anu gwa m? A: nothing, i'll sleep in a while.. E: okay. inom lng ako with (his friend's names here) A: ayt. enjoy! E: tnx. mwah
-that's it!
the next day, i didn't feel like going to school so i did not woke up early. i ym'd my close friend, to make the long conversation short, he asked me if i went to my guy's party last night. and then i told him No, why would i go there..? he said he didn't go either and asked me if i was invited. i told him that maybe i wasn't because he didn't tell me a thing. once again, it caused pain in my heart. i just didn't think about it too much because i know I'm the loser if i let myself drown with the sadness and the madness. that evening my other friend confirmed our visit to nikki's wake tuesday night. i told him, I'm still up for it but he has to ask other friends to come along because anj isn't going to be there with us. he said that our friend (my guy) is coming along with us, and then i said. okey. the next morning my guy texted me again, but not the usual gudmorning message. it's like a /gm for everybody. i replied to his message and told him that "kasama ka pla samin mamaya?" then he said "yep. kasama ako!" that afternoon. my other friend texted me that my guy cant make it. then i received a txt from him saying he's sorry he cant make it because he's really tired because of their new project launching. i told him, it's fine. my friend and i pursued the plan of going to nikki's wake. we talked about many things, and i tried to fish about my guy's birthday. my friend told me he was at home last sunday and done nothing. he also told me that last saturday our friend(my guy) attended the concert with this girl, because she bought the ticket and he had no choice but to go. again i felt a pinched in my heart. but i just laughed at it and acted as if i didn't care. it's pretty hard because it really hurts.
i still don't know what to believe. right now, i don't care anymore if he went to the concert with her. i just don't want to care anymore.
it still upsets me that he's not texting normal (meaning.. our usual exchange of textmessages) i changed my phone and it does'nt have those "U" that looks like a smiley.. sometimes i think when i don't use it, he assumes that im mad.. or im not interested,, and i really miss his goodnight messages. whenever i texted, he's not gonna reply. he'll text and i'll reply but then,, no reply from him. i'm getting really tired of this. i somehow know whats going on behind all of this. i think he's losing interest in me. he wants to end things up.. slowly.. by not texting me everyday.. every hour of the day..
if he wants this to be over, then fine.. JUST TELL ME.
dear E. i dont know what you're thinking. but if its getting things over between us, it's fine. i know this day will come.. i already conditioned my mind for this day. if you still love her just tell me. i wont promise i wont get hurt, but its fine. i allowed this to happen and i know the consequences that i have to face. sure i'll miss you, but i dont want to be with you if you still love her. i dont want this because i know it's going to be hard.. but.. i'm letting you go.
9:16 PM
Thursday, January 22, 2009 COLOURED.
the real deal ( a continuation)
Saturday morning. i woke up late. my head really hurts and i wasn't able to review at all. my mind can't absorb all the information. so i took my exams without reviewing. luckily i surpassed it. well, Saturday is Liveloud night. i didn't expect him to be there because he told me he's not gonna come. i texted him, the usual messages every morning. and he did not. it was fine becos i thought maybe he's just busy or whatever.. i so badly want to ask him about his plans.. that maybe he's gonna celebrate it with friends or whatever.. but well no messages from him.. the liveloud concert was okay. it was uplifting because i was able to worship Him again. i was able to thank Him for all the good things and the blessings that he gave me. when it's time to go. my sister told me she saw my guy there. i was like NO WAY- i don't want to see him. i mean i don't want him to see me that i saw him. i don't want to see the look in his face. i don't want to see his reaction when he sees me. WTF. it hurts really. he went there and he did not told me. i mean, what's wrong with telling me that "hey, i decided to go to the concert.." no messages from him til late that night. i was sad, upset, mad.. i don't know how i felt that time. it was like the saddest thing. i don't get it, why didn't he tell me?, i mean there is really a big possibility that we are going to bumped into each other there.. is he hiding something?. he really do think he can get away there without me knowing that he's there..? gawd! what a stupid jerk.! i was super down that night that i decided to join anj and her friends at giligans trinoma. it was fun. we sang a few songs with the guest band. i want to apologize and at the same time thank anj's friends for trying to make me feel happy. "thanks guys!' *back to the main topic* when i checked my phone, it was past 12 already which means it's his birthday. i had plans beforehand, i told myself that i'm gonna be the first one to greet him. and that i'll buy him a special gift. that i'm gonna surprise him on his birthday. but all of my plans for him had vanished the moment i felt the sadness. after a long argument with myself whether i am gonna greet him "happy birthday, i saw you at the concert.." or "happy birthday nice shirt!" i ended up greeting him using my sun number "happy Birthday -(my name here)" that was the only time that he texted me since late night friday. he said his thanks and told me that he has gone to the concert. and i told him, yea. anj saw you there,, and i said, "i thought you don't wanna come?" and he replied that our friend asked him to come, so he did. our conversation was short I'm not sure but i think he's the one who did not reply to my message. Eventhough i feel bad and a lil mad with him, i still think he has some reasons for not telling me things. i went home with anj at around 2:30 am.
i woke up not super late sunday morning. there were no gudmorning messages from him. mom and i decided to watch a movie that afternoon. while waiting for the movie screening time, mom and i roamed around the mall, i reconsidered buying my gift for him and i was thinking of texting him and asking him to get his gift from me. but there's still no txt.. so i decided to text him instead : A: hi. how was your day so far? E: eto, dvd marathon.. ikaw? A: ow.. ako movie with mom. E: ahh.. okey ingat! A: tnx. nagmass kna?
-no reply
then he texted when i was already watching the film..
E: mie.(smiley here) alam mo landlyn ni (our friend's name here)? A: ndi e..
- waah! super pissed! that night i'm still waiting for his message but i guess he's not gonna send me one, so for the last time i texted him.
A:"hi. for the last time, Happy birthday! i hope u enjoyed this day. goodnight(his name here) E: tnx2. anu gwa m? A: nothing, i'll sleep in a while.. E: okay. inom lng ako with (his friend's names here) A: ayt. enjoy! E: tnx. mwah
-that's it!
the next day, i didn't feel like going to school so i did not woke up early. i ym'd my close friend, to make the long conversation short, he asked me if i went to my guy's party last night. and then i told him No, why would i go there..? he said he didn't go either and asked me if i was invited. i told him that maybe i wasn't because he didn't tell me a thing. once again, it caused pain in my heart. i just didn't think about it too much because i know I'm the loser if i let myself drown with the sadness and the madness. that evening my other friend confirmed our visit to nikki's wake tuesday night. i told him, I'm still up for it but he has to ask other friends to come along because anj isn't going to be there with us. he said that our friend (my guy) is coming along with us, and then i said. okey. the next morning my guy texted me again, but not the usual gudmorning message. it's like a /gm for everybody. i replied to his message and told him that "kasama ka pla samin mamaya?" then he said "yep. kasama ako!" that afternoon. my other friend texted me that my guy cant make it. then i received a txt from him saying he's sorry he cant make it because he's really tired because of their new project launching. i told him, it's fine. my friend and i pursued the plan of going to nikki's wake. we talked about many things, and i tried to fish about my guy's birthday. my friend told me he was at home last sunday and done nothing. he also told me that last saturday our friend(my guy) attended the concert with this girl, because she bought the ticket and he had no choice but to go. again i felt a pinched in my heart. but i just laughed at it and acted as if i didn't care. it's pretty hard because it really hurts.
i still don't know what to believe. right now, i don't care anymore if he went to the concert with her. i just don't want to care anymore.
it still upsets me that he's not texting normal (meaning.. our usual exchange of textmessages) i changed my phone and it does'nt have those "U" that looks like a smiley.. sometimes i think when i don't use it, he assumes that im mad.. or im not interested,, and i really miss his goodnight messages. whenever i texted, he's not gonna reply. he'll text and i'll reply but then,, no reply from him. i'm getting really tired of this. i somehow know whats going on behind all of this. i think he's losing interest in me. he wants to end things up.. slowly.. by not texting me everyday.. every hour of the day..
if he wants this to be over, then fine.. JUST TELL ME.
dear E. i dont know what you're thinking. but if its getting things over between us, it's fine. i know this day will come.. i already conditioned my mind for this day. if you still love her just tell me. i wont promise i wont get hurt, but its fine. i allowed this to happen and i know the consequences that i have to face. sure i'll miss you, but i dont want to be with you if you still love her. i dont want this because i know it's going to be hard.. but.. i'm letting you go.
HELLO! VISITOR, A LIL PIECE OF INFO ABOUT the BLOGGER. YOU CAN CALL HER RMI SHE LOVE COLOURS. NO FAVORITISMS SHE CAN GO WITH ANY COLORS DEPENDING ON HER MOOD !
the blogger is a graduating student of Marketing Management in the University of Santo Tomas
loves eating and chatting with friends
major interest is fashion and tv series such as Supernatural, One tree hill, Glee, Gossip girl, boys over flowers, and many more.
I love MUSIC
Since i love music and i am addicted to it, i'll post here lyrics and chords(I'll try to fix that soon) of my favorite songs.
ive got a playlist from mixpod. will update this hmm.. REGULARLY. for now. get sick of the current songs. hehe!
My new Favorite... RT played this as a reflection song during our youth camp.
I've been Lokking for this for the longest time, it actually slipped my mind,
Good thing He played this.. Thanx RT
YOUR EVERYTHING
(WOODSTRUCK ALBUM 2)
In the darkness of life
I search for your light
You alone are my hope oh Lord
Its You Alone..Its You alone
I surrender to You
Take all of my pride
You alone are my savior Lord
Its You alone... Its You alone...
Chorus
You gave up your life for me
You set me free and You
showed me your love
You've given your Everything
for me to live
Bridge
Never have you walked away from me
YOu were always there when I need you
Now and forever I will serve You my master
I will follow You
this one is a Worship song that really struck me during the REVIVE kasangga overnight.
im in love with it! ;)
THROUGH IT ALL
HILLSONG UNITED
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You
Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
HOPES
Its a hope of COLOURS
-i wish for HIGHer GRADES----------
-I wish for a HAPPY AND CONTINuOUS LOVE LIFE----------
-I wish and hope for a strong faith and stronger service----------
-I wish to see the sky smile again----------
-I wish for a year full of Fun----------
-I wish for myself happiness----------
-I wish my friends and family happiness, good health and peace of mind---------
THE TODOLIST
MY TO DO LIST!
Laundry Business Feasibility study
SECTORCONFERENCE "HOMERUN"
HOUSEHOLD
Chapter assembly
Planning for November Youth Camp
METROCON
GRADPIC PHOTOSHOOT
here's my unofficial mtv for "the art of letting go by Mikaila" this was a requirement for my Integrated Marketing Communications subject. Doing this video was a total exasperation for me and tin. the guy from the vid was my dear friend Nikko Gomez who was kind enough to help me and tin and was very generous to let us use his condo unit and his face for the vid. thanx nikko.
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