after 2 months of not seeing each other. of moving on with life,. when i thought i am over Him, he decided to see me. stupid as i am for him, i agreed for dinner, knowing that i can handle myself better now than before. i was deep in thought, the travel from ortigas to where we usually had dinner was a burden, i somehow regret my decision of having dinner with him. IDK why. My mind told me that it was such a foolish act to agree to see him again. that having dinner would mean i am once again, agreed to be his foolish lover. i must admit, i really miss him, when he asked for movie, i said NO, dinner was not planned, i honestly thought it was any other day, not that same day.
when finally we're together, it seemed normal to him, that March 1 was just like yeasterday. he acted like nothing happened. like We are OKAY. ;O he's still sweet as ever. demanding as ever. at first i dont know how to act, i stay a bit far from where he walks, i dont want him to hold my hand or to lead the way for me. i dont want to feel that he's being a gentleman. that he's acting like my boyfriend. after dinner, i asked for us to go home. well honestly, i dont wanna go home, so he suggested that we visit Ver, of all people. I asked him if he was sure, he answered yes. Ive been wanting to visit Ver for ages, i want to see him also but with E with me, it's not so good of an idea. luckily Ver's not home when we got at his place. we decided to kill time at blue ginger and waited for ver to txt us to go back to his house. at blue ginger, we fed each other with whatever things that we missed for the past two months that we're not seeing each other. i learned about his band changing their name, his new work with friends, that myk's baby was finally baptized and a lot more. when ver texted and looked for us, I asked E if we can tell ver already that we're seeing each other. i am not sure of his reply. but i am positive that he agreed. it was a good thing. i dont want to keep my hopes up that he's finally ready for this, cos i dont wanna get hurt again...
the first time that the three of us were together was such a tormenting day for me. It felt awkward. but that night of 30th, i dont feel any tension. Ver being himself, told us stories about him that we missed during the time that were not together. he doesnt have a celfon and was just borrowing from a friend. its so sweet of E staying by my side and holding my hand every chance he got. i honestly feel that he's finding the right timing to bring up the topic of Us. after hours of talking and exchanging stories. i finally decided to go home because its late already. E didnt metion it to ver. i am not disappointed because i know even before that its quite impossible.
it is so unusual for E to go with me whenever i go home, atleast that's what Ver believed. being the "boss" that E is. Normally, Ver is the one who go with me whenever i go home. but this time, he's not. no goodbye kisses for E that night.
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Don't you know I've tried and I've tried To get you out my mind But it don't get know better As each day goes by And I'm lost and confused I've got nothing to lose Hope you to hear from soon P.S. I'm still not over you Still not over you
i don't know how to do this anymore. i cant seem to get over Him. Though the feelings are not that strong anymore, i still feel that i want to be with him. He's right. i miss him A LOT. i want to surrender. i dont know how to get out from this anymore. ;O
2:30 PM
Monday, May 04, 2009 COLOURED.
P.S., I'm still not over you. ;O
after 2 months of not seeing each other. of moving on with life,. when i thought i am over Him, he decided to see me. stupid as i am for him, i agreed for dinner, knowing that i can handle myself better now than before. i was deep in thought, the travel from ortigas to where we usually had dinner was a burden, i somehow regret my decision of having dinner with him. IDK why. My mind told me that it was such a foolish act to agree to see him again. that having dinner would mean i am once again, agreed to be his foolish lover. i must admit, i really miss him, when he asked for movie, i said NO, dinner was not planned, i honestly thought it was any other day, not that same day.
when finally we're together, it seemed normal to him, that March 1 was just like yeasterday. he acted like nothing happened. like We are OKAY. ;O he's still sweet as ever. demanding as ever. at first i dont know how to act, i stay a bit far from where he walks, i dont want him to hold my hand or to lead the way for me. i dont want to feel that he's being a gentleman. that he's acting like my boyfriend. after dinner, i asked for us to go home. well honestly, i dont wanna go home, so he suggested that we visit Ver, of all people. I asked him if he was sure, he answered yes. Ive been wanting to visit Ver for ages, i want to see him also but with E with me, it's not so good of an idea. luckily Ver's not home when we got at his place. we decided to kill time at blue ginger and waited for ver to txt us to go back to his house. at blue ginger, we fed each other with whatever things that we missed for the past two months that we're not seeing each other. i learned about his band changing their name, his new work with friends, that myk's baby was finally baptized and a lot more. when ver texted and looked for us, I asked E if we can tell ver already that we're seeing each other. i am not sure of his reply. but i am positive that he agreed. it was a good thing. i dont want to keep my hopes up that he's finally ready for this, cos i dont wanna get hurt again...
the first time that the three of us were together was such a tormenting day for me. It felt awkward. but that night of 30th, i dont feel any tension. Ver being himself, told us stories about him that we missed during the time that were not together. he doesnt have a celfon and was just borrowing from a friend. its so sweet of E staying by my side and holding my hand every chance he got. i honestly feel that he's finding the right timing to bring up the topic of Us. after hours of talking and exchanging stories. i finally decided to go home because its late already. E didnt metion it to ver. i am not disappointed because i know even before that its quite impossible.
it is so unusual for E to go with me whenever i go home, atleast that's what Ver believed. being the "boss" that E is. Normally, Ver is the one who go with me whenever i go home. but this time, he's not. no goodbye kisses for E that night.
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Don't you know I've tried and I've tried To get you out my mind But it don't get know better As each day goes by And I'm lost and confused I've got nothing to lose Hope you to hear from soon P.S. I'm still not over you Still not over you
i don't know how to do this anymore. i cant seem to get over Him. Though the feelings are not that strong anymore, i still feel that i want to be with him. He's right. i miss him A LOT. i want to surrender. i dont know how to get out from this anymore. ;O
HELLO! VISITOR, A LIL PIECE OF INFO ABOUT the BLOGGER. YOU CAN CALL HER RMI SHE LOVE COLOURS. NO FAVORITISMS SHE CAN GO WITH ANY COLORS DEPENDING ON HER MOOD !
the blogger is a graduating student of Marketing Management in the University of Santo Tomas
loves eating and chatting with friends
major interest is fashion and tv series such as Supernatural, One tree hill, Glee, Gossip girl, boys over flowers, and many more.
I love MUSIC
Since i love music and i am addicted to it, i'll post here lyrics and chords(I'll try to fix that soon) of my favorite songs.
ive got a playlist from mixpod. will update this hmm.. REGULARLY. for now. get sick of the current songs. hehe!
My new Favorite... RT played this as a reflection song during our youth camp.
I've been Lokking for this for the longest time, it actually slipped my mind,
Good thing He played this.. Thanx RT
YOUR EVERYTHING
(WOODSTRUCK ALBUM 2)
In the darkness of life
I search for your light
You alone are my hope oh Lord
Its You Alone..Its You alone
I surrender to You
Take all of my pride
You alone are my savior Lord
Its You alone... Its You alone...
Chorus
You gave up your life for me
You set me free and You
showed me your love
You've given your Everything
for me to live
Bridge
Never have you walked away from me
YOu were always there when I need you
Now and forever I will serve You my master
I will follow You
this one is a Worship song that really struck me during the REVIVE kasangga overnight.
im in love with it! ;)
THROUGH IT ALL
HILLSONG UNITED
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You
Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You
I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
HOPES
Its a hope of COLOURS
-i wish for HIGHer GRADES----------
-I wish for a HAPPY AND CONTINuOUS LOVE LIFE----------
-I wish and hope for a strong faith and stronger service----------
-I wish to see the sky smile again----------
-I wish for a year full of Fun----------
-I wish for myself happiness----------
-I wish my friends and family happiness, good health and peace of mind---------
THE TODOLIST
MY TO DO LIST!
Laundry Business Feasibility study
SECTORCONFERENCE "HOMERUN"
HOUSEHOLD
Chapter assembly
Planning for November Youth Camp
METROCON
GRADPIC PHOTOSHOOT
here's my unofficial mtv for "the art of letting go by Mikaila" this was a requirement for my Integrated Marketing Communications subject. Doing this video was a total exasperation for me and tin. the guy from the vid was my dear friend Nikko Gomez who was kind enough to help me and tin and was very generous to let us use his condo unit and his face for the vid. thanx nikko.
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