a lot has happened recently and i cant really process all of them.. well discovery camp and then met up with earl. then first day party.

well this didn't bother me too much but it has become a habit, and i hate myself because when i get too curious i try to find answers which sometimes, i think.. is not essential anymore.
last night, this guy happened to invite me again.. and i swore myself I'll find the real reason behind it. i agreed to meet up. and hey i kinda trust him cos he's my friend.. and its a good thing that we're not alone. he has friends there that i also know. so i didn't worry too much. bad thing was, i was drunk. and to make the story short, he TRIED to take advantage of the situation. i thank God, that somehow, the FRIENDSHIP still rule over. when i said NO. he stopped. but i hate it because i couldn't believe that he's gonna do that to me. his friend and i are going out. he told me he didn't know. funny thing was his friend did this to me before, but not like this. what i remember was that when i ask why they both have the same answer, "... because i like you" and damn. i didn't buy it.

and i hate myself for not hating him. its okay. i don't know.
i really dont know. i need to talk to my friends... NOW.

a lot has happened recently and i cant really process all of them.. well discovery camp and then met up with earl. then first day party.

well this didn't bother me too much but it has become a habit, and i hate myself because when i get too curious i try to find answers which sometimes, i think.. is not essential anymore.
last night, this guy happened to invite me again.. and i swore myself I'll find the real reason behind it. i agreed to meet up. and hey i kinda trust him cos he's my friend.. and its a good thing that we're not alone. he has friends there that i also know. so i didn't worry too much. bad thing was, i was drunk. and to make the story short, he TRIED to take advantage of the situation. i thank God, that somehow, the FRIENDSHIP still rule over. when i said NO. he stopped. but i hate it because i couldn't believe that he's gonna do that to me. his friend and i are going out. he told me he didn't know. funny thing was his friend did this to me before, but not like this. what i remember was that when i ask why they both have the same answer, "... because i like you" and damn. i didn't buy it.

and i hate myself for not hating him. its okay. i don't know.
i really dont know. i need to talk to my friends... NOW.